A Wandering Fox

 

Okay, no. I'm also weird! I just want to clarify that Virtual Fire hasn't made me feel like an outsider at all--all of yall have been incredibly kind. It's just my experiences and fears bubbling to the surface. And also me trying to figure out weird, contradictory social rules, right? I'm still going to try to speak last when omen volunteers are asked for. I really love this grove and I don't want to fuck it up. After I posted the last post, the next day the depression was gone. Things were clearer and I didn't feel as vulnerable and like a loser who can't keep friends. I'm never really had a lot of friends--I'm a homebody and I'm also careful...or I thought I was careful with interacting with people. It would appear that my techno-psychic abilities aren't as sharp as I thought they were. Over the last few years, I've had some abusive friendships and met some selfish, two-faced people. I didn't realize that I was so naive! An

I had a great Halloween and Midfall.  It was also my Handfasting Anniversary on the 31st, and that was wonderful, too. I didn't attend Three Crane Grove's rite because our neighborhood held their Trick or Treat night.  I also decided to not pay my Friend dues to TCG this October because I'm just in a weird place.  I've been dealing with a lot of grief and depression, and just fighting with myself this fall.  Virtual Fire did have a rite, and I offered to do the omen, but only if others didn't want to.  And I want others to want to, too.  I think instead of offering first, I'll stay quiet and let others volunteer.  I don't want anyone to think that I'm trying to take over as the main seer, ya know?   It's my favorite part and I'm good at it, but I don't want others to feel that they shouldn't volunteer just because I'm present.  Or because I've said, "I will if no one else wants to."  I don't mind being a default rea

 Courage Acting appropriately in the face of adversity. Doing the right thing. Spirit of Courage by Rev. Dangler The winds of the season's change Blow through the trees and leaves. The y cry out, speaking of our place in the cycle, Telling tales of the year ahead. When the way is dark, I seek you; Spirit of Courage, the Bull in the Woods. I hear your voice, echoing in the trees. A call that stirs my heart and lifts me When all things seem too much to bear. You help me navigate change and fear, Leading me through dark forests at night. For even when I feel abandoned by friends, Your guiding light is shown to be internal. I draw that compass forth and follow you. My heart and my health are warm. Spirit of Courage, Bull of the Woods, I honor you for your guidance. Reflections : Lessening dairy in your diet.  Adding yet another dietary restriction as you learn to listen to your body and to the things that hurt you.  Getting strict with portion control.  Doing all of these things for yo

Ooof, how could I mess this one up? I said that August Rodan--one of my favorite sculptors--sculpted one of my favorite sculptures (say that five times fast), The Pieta . Nope, it was Michelangelo. Apparently that's one of those things that my brain thought wasn't important to know and deleted it to make room for other stuff. ------------------------ The week of Piety was interesting.  I was dealing with a lot of pain week due to over indulgence, and a lot of praying.  My gods have told me to ask for more help from them, instead of dealing with it all myself.  So I listened and I asked. After some offerings and promises made, They really did deliver.   Usually when I try to do healing magik on myself, it doesn't always work because of self doubt.   I worked the healing magik with Them, which I always do for others.  I tried different methods and eliminated that negative self-talk that tends to plague my life.  I drew runes on the area that was hurting, and did some galdr

I'm in the early stages of working with Thor, so today I decided to ask what He wants me to focus on: I saw and drew Hagalaz - Shelter from the storm.  Thurisaz - Thor.  Kenaz - Guidance.   Thor said that while I am in my shelter, to focus on studying: Runic Magik, focusing on healing (I've been wanting a book on runic healing!) Runes Ogham Confidence And to start wearing Mjolnir. First, the Hagalaz storm shelter that I'm in is a period of grief and healing.  My mom died back in October and she and I had a complicated relationship, and I've been healing from all of the crisis and trauma.  I've also been instructed to do no magik--unless it's an emergency.  It's also been a bit of a fallow period with many of my deities, save for Hekate and Odin, and recently Thor.  This has been my storm shelter : no magik, surrendering to my Gods, letting thing go, and just flowing.  No rushing, no future plans, to be present and patient.  And to focus on runes, ogham, seid

There we go, a fresh new blog for my druidry adventures.  I already have a lot on my main blog, Book of Mirrors , and just felt like giving--at least my Dedicant Path stuff it's own space.  That blog has been "Book of Mirrors" since day one of blogspot for me, back in 2011.  Other have come and gone, such as my old wordpress From the Mud, which was about healing, a weight loss and belly dance blog (Dancing Nymph), and another.  I do still having my pagan parenting blog, although it's not as active as BOM.  Book of Mirrors has stayed constant and active.  I read and research a lot, and I write a lot too.  I don't share quite as much as I used to, but I still write.  BOM as of late has become a bit of a catch-all.  I wanted my druid stuff to be separate.  There may still be some overlap, but that happens. Introduction time, is it?  I'm not great at intros, so bear with me.  I'm Kristy, my spiritual name is Foxlyn Wren, or Fox for short.  I'm married with