Different Kinds of Rituals

I'm trying to work on my Midfall ritual, but alas, I just lack the motivation and inspiration to do so.  Normally Midfall is my favorite ritual, and this is usually my favorite time of the year, but since 2011, October's been over shadowed by heavy grief energy.  I had a miscarriage that month and year, but have long since healed from it, knowing that my son Nathan is fine on the other side.  

From that kind of grief to financial grief, it didn't get easier.  It got even more stressful, especially once our landlord in 2022, evicted us so they could refurbish the unit.  That was a super stressful time, but Gods willing, we ended up at our currant home--an upgrade to a kind landlord (I didn't know those actually existed!) and not being in an apartment anymore.  We're not attached to anyone, we have a driveway, and we're in a safe neighborhood.  However, I'm also still healing from the trauma from our last landlord.  Oofff.  Dude was a jackass--a jackass who I cursed the shit out of (he more than deserved it--I don't fuck around with cursing, I curse to protect and to heal--he was a monster to other tenets, especially the non-white/inter-racial ones).

Then my mom died last Oct 14th, so I've been dealing with those emotions.

Last year, I didn't write a ritual, ADF or other.  I have rituals from previous years, but my path has changed and I just didn't feel like writing an ADF style one.  

This year, I'm just not inspired.  I'm working with Death and Psychopomp entities, but I'm not feeling a push from Them either.  Which is okay, too.  

Guess it's another year of just attending other's rites.

Although ritual isn't just ceremony and such.  Tomorrow we're going pumpkin picking at our favorite farm!  Activities, I'll be taking family photos, and finding the right pumpkins for our protection and ancestral magiks.  Like we do every year.

This weekend, I'm working my last event of the year and our neighborhood is doing Trick or Treat, which means costume photos and brewing a cauldron of Moon Cider!  Another yearly ritual that I enjoy doing with my family.  Hubby's 41st birthday is on the 30th, with an apple pie--which I'm thinking about making this year.  Before I learned about celiac, I used to make a yummy Swedish Apple Pie that hubs loved.  I haven't made it in long...

Come the 31st, it's our 14th Handfasting anniversary and the city's Trick or Treat.

November 1st--Midfall--is when I do my Ancestral and Psychopomp rites.

Oh right, and of course all of the strong political energies flying about unhinged right now.  Those hate-fill political ads are everywhere.  So draining.  I can't wait until the elections are over--hopefully we won't be ruled by a democracy destroying bigoted dictator.  I've been doing a lot of spell work these last two months, AND I've also gotten back to my daily ADF devotionals.  I finally found an incense brand that I'm not allergic to, and have been burning frankincense and patchouli as offerings quite a bit.

Boy, can't wait until it's all done.  Get back to focusing on family and my work, and studies.  The many many essays that I still have left to write...